If you really knew me

If you really knew me you'd know im terrified of standing up in front of people, but if i dont i regret not being able to speak my mind.

If you really knew me you'd know i dont believe in love but i still end up falling for any person that gives me the slightest bit of attention. . . maybe that's why i dont believe in love.

If you really knew me you'd know i bite my nails when i get stressed or anxious, which is everyday. . . all day.

If you really knew me you'd know im a mom and im scared im not doing everything right or that she will grow up to me just like me or her dad.

If you really knew me you'd know that i like everybody unless your mean to other people or especially animals.

If you really knew me you'd know im Vegetarian.

If you really knew me you'd know i hate being super girly but i love doing hair and makeup.

If you really knew me you'd know i would give up almost anything to be able to write amazing every time and that i wish i could drop everything and just write all my life.

If you really knew me you'd know that i i could i would marry Anis Mojgani even though i can pronounce his name right once every 100 times i say it.

If you really knew me you'd know that i have depression but i dont believe in taking prescription drugs, i think they mess us up more then we already are.

If you really knew me you'd know that im pretty sure im in love with this guy who will never love me back.

If you really knew me you'd know that i love being alone but at the same time im scared to be alone.

If you really knew me you'd know that i hate war and every president we have had recently.

If you really knew me you'd know im horrified of ghosts, being possessed, spiders, heights, guns, driving without a seat belt, and the list goes on.

If you really knew me you'd know im really self conscious and i hate my teeth.

If you really knew me you'd know i get teary eyed when ever i see llamas.

If you really knew me you'd know that cats are my favorite and you would know that i talk to my cat July like he's human and that would jump in front of a car for him.

If you really knew me you'd know if you hurt cats i hurt you.